God's Will, My Will...Which is it?

I wish I could post. How I wish I could blog. But I can't even do that. At least not anything personal enough.

How I wish I could be someone else at times.

Is the person that God wants me to be really this limited in life by her occupation?

Or is my life limitless and am I simply limiting myself?

The dichotomies present are so endless.

Am I living God's will, but needing to pull through?

Or am I living my own life, and is God asking me to change?

I don't know. And I fear I'll never know.